a gasp of air

it's been some time since i last written.. one reason is cuz i'm really quite busy with OC to the point where i feel tired everyday.. and also cuz i don't know what to write..
so hmmm.. let's see.. jas is going to australia for 2 years this friday.. and i can't be there to send her off cuz i'll be in pangkor malaysia for my OC comm retreat.. i think it's just as well cuz i tend to get quite emotional in such situations.. so i shall just avoid it altogether..
sometimes i feel that even though you may know many people, only a few actually know you.. there are only a few you have deep meaningful conversations with.. the others are just talk crap and have fun kind.. i'm not saying it's a bad thing.. but don't you all want to have more meaningful conversations..? or maybe it's just me.. i like talking rubbish and laughing at nonsense.. but sometimes i just need more than that.. how can people just talk rubbish everyday and just let life pass like that.. it makes me feel like i'm too serious a person.. really.. is it just me..?
i wish i had the gift of knowing when to say the right things at the right time.. okay.. it's getting random.. i suddenly thought of it.. like how do i comfort someone..? some people are just so good at it.. but for me, i have no idea what to say..
anyway the only other things on my mind is all the OC stuff la.. how how how..? it's really taking over my life la.. eat: what should i do for decor..?; bathe: i have to think of another song leh..; sleep: okay, tomorrow i must do this this this and that that that..
ya, that's basically it.. sigh.