the result of having exams
i'm back after a terrible few weeks or so.. lest mab says this place is dead again and digs a grave for it again.. i'm dead!! and i cannot emphasise it more!! how how how!! i've lost my study mood (if i even had one in the first place).. so i can't study for my last paper!! i call it my stray paper.. cuz my papers are all on the 21st apr to 25th.. then my last one is on stupid 3rd may.. hmph! i'm dead la i'm dead la..
i'm so sick of studying la.. who isn't.. but it's different.. i'm sure many of you have felt it before.. like you put in so much effort.. then hope that cuz you put in so much effort, you'll do reasonable well.. but in the end it's like the same as not studying.. makes me feel so sick of it.. like what for put in effort when in the end your effort will raise your expectations and the disappointment will be greater.. might as well just not study, then know that you didn't study so you shouldn't expect much, then get okay results and feel that 'aiya, i never study anyway'.. and i'm rambling on.. and i don't know if anyone understands me.. but it's okay.. just wanted to get it off my chest cuz i think it's this feeling that's making me not want to study.. what if i study but still do horribly, i might as well not study and tell myself i didn't do well cuz i didn't study right..?
i'm such a weirdo.. think of such stuff.. anyway.. i've been sleeping the whole weekend and i still feel sleepy.. i'm such a pig.. why do i do this to myself..?! kick me la!
i listened to class 95 for two nights while trying to study during my weekend.. made me feel all sappy and emotional cuz they were playing all the ancient love songs.. those kind you haven't heard in years.. made me feel all nostalgic and kept me thinking of the past (instead of my stats).. i don't want to grow up! i don't to take on the responsibilities adults have! i want to complain about studying all my life! i don't want to work! i'll bet some of you think this way too.. i don't want to grow up, EXCEPT i want to get married and have kids! hahaha! but still.. i wish i could turn back time and go back to sec school.. sleep and eat in class.. talk rubbish and go to the toilet to together during chinese class.. in those times, my chinese was actually not bad la.. now i can't understand half the things they're saying on tv.. esp all the cheng2 yu3.. as one gets older, one has more to worry about.. i don't want more to worry about.. quick! someone! invent a time machine!
speaking of which i don't believe that it is possible to time travel.. hmm.. what do you think of outer space creatures..? i'm still thinking whether i should think that there's a possibility that they exist.. i'm digressing so much but i don't care.. don't you ever think that it's tiring to always maintain a certain kind of order in your life..? that sometimes a little mess is actually refreshing..? i like to have my own mess.. where i know exactly where everything is even though it's a mess.. and that's what you'll find in my room.. i'm talking so much rubbish now.. all cuz i refuse to study.. but i'm so sick of it.. anna, your tissue didn't wipe my problems away.. and ethel, i don't think i poked the right answer.. :( i hate exams!
i'm so sick of studying la.. who isn't.. but it's different.. i'm sure many of you have felt it before.. like you put in so much effort.. then hope that cuz you put in so much effort, you'll do reasonable well.. but in the end it's like the same as not studying.. makes me feel so sick of it.. like what for put in effort when in the end your effort will raise your expectations and the disappointment will be greater.. might as well just not study, then know that you didn't study so you shouldn't expect much, then get okay results and feel that 'aiya, i never study anyway'.. and i'm rambling on.. and i don't know if anyone understands me.. but it's okay.. just wanted to get it off my chest cuz i think it's this feeling that's making me not want to study.. what if i study but still do horribly, i might as well not study and tell myself i didn't do well cuz i didn't study right..?
i'm such a weirdo.. think of such stuff.. anyway.. i've been sleeping the whole weekend and i still feel sleepy.. i'm such a pig.. why do i do this to myself..?! kick me la!
i listened to class 95 for two nights while trying to study during my weekend.. made me feel all sappy and emotional cuz they were playing all the ancient love songs.. those kind you haven't heard in years.. made me feel all nostalgic and kept me thinking of the past (instead of my stats).. i don't want to grow up! i don't to take on the responsibilities adults have! i want to complain about studying all my life! i don't want to work! i'll bet some of you think this way too.. i don't want to grow up, EXCEPT i want to get married and have kids! hahaha! but still.. i wish i could turn back time and go back to sec school.. sleep and eat in class.. talk rubbish and go to the toilet to together during chinese class.. in those times, my chinese was actually not bad la.. now i can't understand half the things they're saying on tv.. esp all the cheng2 yu3.. as one gets older, one has more to worry about.. i don't want more to worry about.. quick! someone! invent a time machine!
speaking of which i don't believe that it is possible to time travel.. hmm.. what do you think of outer space creatures..? i'm still thinking whether i should think that there's a possibility that they exist.. i'm digressing so much but i don't care.. don't you ever think that it's tiring to always maintain a certain kind of order in your life..? that sometimes a little mess is actually refreshing..? i like to have my own mess.. where i know exactly where everything is even though it's a mess.. and that's what you'll find in my room.. i'm talking so much rubbish now.. all cuz i refuse to study.. but i'm so sick of it.. anna, your tissue didn't wipe my problems away.. and ethel, i don't think i poked the right answer.. :( i hate exams!
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